Fatten The Calf Father... The Prodigal's Here

I'm going home.. finally.
*yay!*

Ummm, actually, I don't know if I really feel the 'yay' factor.

All this while I've been whining about how I can't wait to go home... and now that the day is just around the corner, I'm scared as hell!

I've changed. But they've changed too! Though we've kept the telephone lines and cyberspace alive with artificial cheer, it's just not the same. So many faces I'll look for but never see again... so many new ones I've never seen before... half the time I forget the real headcount of the clan.

Oh, I kinda like my darling brood of pseudo-sophisticates. But trying to keep pace with their capricious expectations is not worth the effort!

I don't remember when my love-band lost it's elasticity. Sometime during one of those sonorous monologues from my aunts recounting every catty detail of the latest 'cheriya' problem? Or perhaps while listening to the exalted Ettans and Chechis convince me that I have a long way to go before climbing UP to their level :D Insecurity does come in various forms innit? Ah well, it doesn't cost me a dime to insert the appropriate "Uh huh" "yeah, you're right" and "Mmmm" during expectant skype pauses. I've gotten pretty good at that.
But P.S. I don't do ladders dahlings. Why do you think god invented escalators hmmmm? :|

Oof! I'm whining again :D
It's not completely bad. After all, I'll get to see my dad, my grampie, and Jols, Moni, Chech and my little D-girl - who's not so little now!!! :D Dang! How dare you grow up!

I'm scared. I'm relieved. I'm going crazy! Can't wait to get this over with. And I can't WAIT to get back... because somehow... without me realising it, this has become 'Home' now.

Sigh!

Anyway... on a totally diferent tangent... Here's a piece of advice y'all.
Don't hand over soda to friends sitting in front of you in the car.
I nearly died of Burp overdose. It was SO ewwwkkkk!!
TMI no? :D Deal with it.
;)

Psssst.... Yes you only!
If you're still reading my gibberish.... a BIG BEAR HUG to you!

XOXOXO
Macadamia The Nut